An Exercise In Creative Self-Discipline: Part 2
February 23rd, 2007 by JaneIt was Sunday afternoon, and the clock was ticking on towards my writing deadline. I promised myself publicly on this blog that I would make at least one entry per week, adding on to my story/novella/novel each time. There was a nagging pressure that felt like a mosquito relentlessly buzzing about my head in an otherwise quiet room at night, when sleep should prevail, but won’t. I knew I would keep the promise I made to myself, but until I got down to business, there was a distinct buzz following me throughout the day.
Concern that I had absolutely nothing more to say was quietly haunting me. As long I was alive and conscious, I had to trust that there must be something to say. Of course, the compulsion to be fabulous must not take center stage. Inhibition was my enemy.
Finally, I took my seat and began. To my surprise I found, an energy that propelled me to actually have a good time, and I was able to write a few paragraphs. The escapism of the story was a great way to get away from the hectic pace of New York City. I have been talking about how much I miss the countryside. I guess that is why I chose to take myself, through the writing, to a small town in a rural part of the country. It is why I made the main character a country girl who finds herself in situations that I have never actually had.
I must admit, I am now feeling what I felt before making my second entry to the story: fear, and mistrust of myself. It will be interesting notice if it becomes easier with time. Let’s hope…
Please click here to read just this installment (the second of two installments so far).
